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god-of-knk · 2 months ago

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"You can't fall out of love with him."

"You can come and go as you please."

"He doesn't have to worry about hurting you."

I also can't have him. Like, for all I try to rationalize that being obsessed with someone that isn't real is better than someone that is, it sucks. All I have of him is pen and paper. Pixels or text on a screen. Images in my mind. I can't feel his touch. I can't hear his voice. I can't taste his lips, his skin, his blood.

I hope you never have to live with the helplessness of caring so much for someone who is incapable of returning it. Someone who you have no hope of having.

It's awful. It's wretched. It's so fucking lonely. And it's not even a loneliness I can do anything to remedy. It's the loneliness of having someone I can be entirely myself around, and then having that ripped from me. The loneliness of knowing I will never have that again. I can't.

Sometimes it's enough to break me. To make me question why I should even be here if I can't have that. To drive me to near tears and make me want to peel my skin off.

You don't have to live with that feeling. Instead, you can just sit there. Sit there and degrade me and my angel. Degrade the man I would burn the world to see just once more.

All to feel better about yourself.

#just. thinking about things.#I don't like to be this open about the shittiness of it but whatever #f lamenting

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koobiie · 6 months ago

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shoutout to everyone who wants to infodump but cant string together coherent thoughts to form sentences and instead just look at you like this

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inkskinned · 6 months ago

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please i love you i'm begging you bring back suspension of disbelief bring back trusting the audience like. i cannot handle any more dialogue that sounds like a legal document. "hello, i am here to talk to you about the incident from a few minutes ago, because i feel you might be unwell, and i am invested in your personal wellbeing." "thank you, i am unwell because the incident was hurtful to me due to my childhood, which was bad." I CANT!!!!

do you know how many people are mad that authors use "growled" as a word for "said"? it's just poetics! they do not literally mean "growled," it's just a common replacement for "said with force but in a low tone." it's normal! do you hear me!! help me i love you please let me out of here!!!

#i am so sick of writers having to anticipate the most boring #bad-faith readings of their work. i am like - if you use cheese as a currency #okay! as long as the world makes sense to me: cool. cheese tax. moving on.#my job as the reader is to suspend my disbelief and say okay! i am so sick of like #fanfiction authors having to write dissertations #because they had an interesting idea they'd like to try out!!!#just write it! if it doesn't make sense that's someone else's problem!!!#PS OP is autistic. yes sometimes i take things literally at first glance. then i think about it lol #this is so clearly not about accessibility etc. it's about like. girl even i an autistic person #am able to understand ''they probably didn't mean his eyes darkened LITERALLY''

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 8 months ago

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The math just adds up!

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #marcille donato #farcille #I always loved how chapter 27 ends with them both so bloody and 28 starts with them in the bath.#not just because of how iconic the bathtub moment is but because you know they had to scrap off so much gore first.#I think everyone in the party took a very long and methodical bath but Falin was basically *all* blood*.#Being covered in blood is one of those 'just girly things' that women deserve to stop being shamed about.#I just don't think Chilchuck is progressive enough. He probably made them take a bath first B*/#Okay jestering aside I want to just highlight -#The magnitude of Marcille's joy at seeing her dearest friend again! Of holding her and sharing her presence in the same room!#Something about this reunion feels like a beautiful dream you are afraid of waking up from...

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lazylittledragon · 10 months ago

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can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

#ramble #if you say unalive in front of me i will personally kill you with my hands #you just can't muffle and censor and hold someone's hand through some things #some things are horrible. and they should be spoken aloud and they should upset you. because they are horrible #the second we started kidzbopifying the world was the end of taking anything seriously i think #i'm not even joking i've spoken to people older than me who won't even say the world sex #this isn't the playground you're not going to get in trouble just let us say the word!!!!!!#how am i supposed to listen to you when you won't even say the thing you're supposed to be talking about #yes this is the fault of the platforms with their censorship rules but the fact that we all just go along with it like it's not dystopian #you do know it doesn't stop with cursing right. people are already having to censor queer terms because they get flagged as inappropriate

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kensatou · 4 months ago

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i'll let phie-san say it:

#the vids i've seen on tiktok picking at her immediately get a block...#bitter otaku sitting in their socks in their mom's basement feeling threatened/enraged by a hot successful black woman outnerding them-core #also this kind of criticism is so demoralising and damaging to people who are trying to learn another language #also. accents are NORMAL and not a bad thing #i don't think that the end goal of picking up a new language necessarily has to be sounding native #and i know sometimes the way japanese people react like SUGOIII? *W* when a foreigner says like one (1) word in japanese is joked about #but like... genuinely... i always love when someone clearly has made an effort and took the time to learn some of the language #anyway she can step on those haters <3 #also like. it’s just some lines in a song people need to relax…#megan thee stallion #autoplay warning #japan #japanese #language #mamushi

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frankierotwinkdeath · 4 months ago

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Y’all want Taylor Swift to be gay so bad but you won’t even write femslash about her

#I was curious so I looked it up 1038 fics on ao3 tagged Taylor Swift and f/f #like I’m not necessarily encouraging people to go out and write rpf #but it’s wild that arguably the biggest musical artist right now who has a huge community speculating about her sexuality has so little fic #like this isn’t a good or bad thing I just think it’s interesting #idk I’m not actually a swiftie like that #like I listen to her music and keep up generally with what she’s doing but I’m not really in the fandom #so there might be something I’m missing

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dirtytransmasc · 1 year ago

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the men and boys are innocent too.

we cry "the innocent women and children" to appeal to the masses, to try and force their sympathy, but the men and boys are innocent too.

I have seen sons crying out for their mothers, their fathers, their siblings. I have seen them break down at the loss of their families. I have seen them cling to their dead and grieve.

I have seen fathers cradle their dead children, seen them kiss their faces and hold their little hands. I have seen them faint with grief when asked to identify the dead. I have seen them carry their sons and daughters. I have seen them fasting to provide what little they can for their families.

I have seen men and boys digging through the rubble with just their bare hands, I have seen them comforting strangers, playing with children, rocking them, hushing them, even if the face of such imminent danger. I have seen them cry, seen them grieve, seen them break down into each other's arms, seen them be selfless, beyond selfless, becoming something I don't have a word for.

I have seen the men who are doctors refuse to leave their patients, even when they have no medicine or supplies to give them, even when they're threatened with bombings. I have seen fathers who have lost all their children pick orphans up into their arms and proclaim them their child so they are not alone. I have seen men and boys digging pets out of the rubble.

the men are innocent too. the men and boys are being hurt and killed too. the men and boys are grieving too. the men and boys are scared too. the men and boys are fighting to save their people too. the men and boys deserve to be fought for too.

#I don't have words to describe how I feel for the men of Palestine #the things I have seen them do after everything they have been through goes so far beyond selfless #what do you call this? this prevailing goodness and willingness to give everything they have and more? what word even touches it?#I don't think there is one #islamophobia has conditioned us to see these men and boys as evil and dangerous #we see this in how we speak about Palestine #and we need to uncondition ourselves #they're just as innocent and of value and good as the women and children #so fight for them #they don't deserve this any more than the women and children #free palestine #palestine

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baristabomb · 6 months ago

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...weird amount of dunmeshi fans have been saying being a caretaker in a relationship is the worst thing ever..marcille must want to killl everyone soo bad because doing things for people suuuucks sooo muchh

it's an act of love, not just a job i promise. we all want someone who's willing to take care of us in some way, just like how senshi shows care for others by cooking for them :'|

#marcille donato #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #laios touden #falin touden #chilchuck tims #izutsumi #delicious in dungeon #this is also about kabru and mithrun stop focusing so hard on how it was ‘forced upon’ kabru as if it’s the most evil thing in the world #they took care of EACH OTHER during that time and mithrun wasn’t doing nothing #people are so weird about him and reduce mithrun down to his disability as if he isn’t CAPTAIN for a reason #it’s sooo insane #try thinking about how their time together serves the themes of the story rather than a biased interpretation #of all the things that happen in this manga people focus on the weirdest things to apply to real life #people try to construe is as something evil with evil intent as if it’s not there to benefit the THEMES of the story #woah a huge...heron? just landed on a tree i've been staring at it for like 10 minutes its pretty #dungeon meshi spoilers

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serial-unaliver · 5 months ago

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when people talk about serial killers that target women they do not often enough specify it's typically a vulnerable demographic of women (sex workers, often ones in poverty) rather than like, a random woman jogging in an upper class neighborhood. these sex workers are a favorable target due to cops not giving a shit, stigmatization of sex work resulting in these women being isolated, and already existing violent misogyny towards them in our society.

#my posts are kind of all over the place rn I know but i'm just thinking about a lot of different things

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gossippool · 2 months ago

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*steeples hands under my chin like i'm sherlock* so you see,

#user: gossippool 😝#gossippool metas #can this be considered meta if i don't say anything #not a day goes by where i do not think about wade's naked fight scene. i am just a girl #i was going to make this a video edit instead to me and the devil because that was the first thing i thought of #but i was lazy! and my editing skills are ass! so #deadpool and wolverine #deadpool & wolverine #deadpool #wade wilson #wolverine #logan howlett #poolverine

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aphel1on · 1 year ago

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i have such a love for characters who descend into madness or villainy out of deep, deep empathy. characters who fundamentally cannot cope with the cruel realities they find themselves in and blow up about it in spectacular fashion. fallen angel type characters with tears of outrage in their eyes. characters who break before they bend, and break so badly they splatter blood all over their noble ideals. every variation on it gets me so good

#getou suguru #kaneki ken #abyss twin #i know there are others who im not thinking of rn #feel free to reblog with more examples #aphelion.txt #tropes #WAIT I REMEMBERED MORE #jaina proudmoore #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #phosphophyllite #i just spent like half an hour trying to find this on tv tropes but it must be. Too specific of a thing i have in mind bc #I just kept finding similar and related but too broad categories #despair event horizon. fallen hero. well intentioned extremist. etc etc etc #like specifically i'm talking about when the character's EMPATHY is the CRUX of the problem. sosooo crunchyjuicytasty #edit:#also just know that i am reading every tag on this post #and enthusiastically scribbling down the names i dont recognizr #so i can check out their series later #edit 2 wow this post blew up 🫡 godspeed fellow villain likers #the amount of people tagging this as 'me lmao' is concerning to me #wwx #how did i fucking forget this was also yllz era wwx

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perfectlyripeclementine · 2 years ago

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calling my lover "mine" but not in the way that my toothbrush or notebook are mine, mine in the way my neighborhood is mine, and also everybody else's, "mine" like mine to tend to, mine to care for, mine to love. "mine" not like possession but devotion.